words cannot fathom how furiated/upset/sad I am right now.  I hella wanna audition for this one group err whatever that’s hella raw and are performing at this one thang.  even though I’m not sure if I’ll make it in.  at least to try it out, yeno?  welps my mom won’t let me.  I mean, I still can go to auditions this weekend cuhs they’ll be out.  but that’s hella heat.  like, helllla heat.  well, knowing me I’ll go as long I have gas.  I’m tryna get brookie to come with.  I mean I’m honestly not sure if I’ll make it.  with what I’ve taken and whatnot.  but shit I can’t help but be optimistic.  well, hella optimistic LOL.  fawkk how the hell did my mom let me do vhong’s dance every night of the week in daly city till midnight.  but I can’t do this where practice is only twice a week and on the weekends.  wtf cornbread.  I might just get back at my mom by yada yada tonight.  but what if I go, then I don’t want my head to be all fucked up yeno.  plus fiance hella doesn’t want me to do that.  we’ll see.  I’ll burn if anything.

I was so mad I even told my mom that Imma do drugs cuhs of her.  fuck that.  freal, dancing’s my fucking anti-drug.  it really is.  &I know for a fact if I do this shit, I’ll be clean as fuck.  but ohwelps Imma be a dumbass now.

going out tonight forfuckingsure.  I don’t know with who.  hopefully babe can come out.  I don’t wanna be stuck with blah blah blah even though it’s fine.  I wanna go out hella bad.  like freal.  and wanted to burn hella bad today.  I don’t even fucking know why!  I never get those kind of urges.  welps it was hella chill today. 
today was fun just with fiance &his cousin.  then brookie slid through :D  I’m so happy she did.  she made a big part of my day.

deuces,
<33raynigg