hmm this weekend.  I felt dumbass special for being invited to the baptism =*X  soo went to that on saturday with fiance and son in oakland.  I know right.  been a while since I’ve been to church so it was nice.  then thanga thang at eden shores.  I drank hellllla ahahah jk well for me that’s a step up for not going crazy.  umm dumbshit with my phone.  got asked out, but I had a horrible day.  plus I’d rather be sober.  sorryy ahahah there’s always next week yeah?

sunday finally finished all my fucking homework.  then had to sneak out cuhs my mom is gay and won’t let me drive to school meaning yada yada.  picked up my posterboard that looks pretty boss.  the leper’s first time sneaking out.  same old bitch.  then gay crap with my phone.. again wtff fuck my fucking life.
hella knocked out when I got home today.  till now I’m hella tired.  needa fucking hundreds lighter.  mm visiting my grandpa this saturday!  tell me why I can’t wait.  I used to visit every weekend.  &now it’s like hella special.  ish.  &I can kick it.  nakssss.  ish.  so break next week.  for like ten fucking days.  I mean till a few hours ago I was hella juiced.  cuhs now I realized there’s a chance of my mom making me stay home.  fawkk even if I do have goodass grades, that might buy me just half of the break to leave.  got me sad.  I cried ish ahahah stfu.

btw, I’m listening to the songs right now.  True Romance is supercute.  they all explain everything.  shit, I may be making a huge mistake with all this.  but understand when I tell you that I cannot take the pain and anger you’ve put me through already.  &more to come, whether you try or not.  our differences overcome us, hella bad.  the pain; don’t get me started.  I can’t begin to fathom with all that shit.  I did you wrong too and we both don’t deserve that shit.  this’ll give us the chance to start something new.  we’ll both be good at it because we’ve learned countless lessons together and apply them.  I’m thankful for what we had.