I just wanna know too.

waoww, so it’s been like a fucking week?
perhaps I didn’t blog about last weekend I think it was when I had prolly the bestest funnest day &night.  it was with umm the usuals plus john and marty.  ohyeah and his friend silent library haha.  wait then earl the girl and chance was there too.  I was on like donkey kong.  that was my last time though don’t trip stinky arm pit.  only some of us went back to the bomb ass condo.  then fucking sang rock songs all night and danced routines that I can remember.  I’m really fucking up =X

hmm then been staying in I think for a good while since.  been hella tired lately.  think it’s cuhs I’m getting fat =T  which is because I haven’t been on lol and also cuhs my monthly is late as fuck!  GRRRRRR almost been a muhfucking weeeeek.  arrghh oh welps korea’s open house was superfun with a couple exceptions.  I can’t fucking believe I drove drunk.  I don’t wanna do that shit again.  but I prolly will haha.  I just don’t want anyone else to.  stole my first bottle!  :D  holy shit I’m so fucking proud of me and korea.  soo I actually turned down a pill.  there’s a first.  but I’m also proud of me for doing that too(:  so drank maybe five ish and made a new bestfriend.  bababa, ahahah.  fucking hilarious.

well I had like a horrible day yesterday.  everyone and everything made me feel like a worthless piece of shit.  I still do feel that way but Imma keep it to myself.  fucking weird how people think the same about me.  hmm well I’m confused as fuck right now.  I hate not knowing what I want. 
I’m really sorry that it has to be this way.  maybe it’s the distance, the time apart, or it really isn’t good?  shiett iunoo but we’ll see whatever it is.  I fucking hate hurting people.  I always end up doing it unintentionally.  that’s why I think I should stay away from guys.  even if it’s hard, I have to put others before me.  waow I can’t believe I said that.  maybe I really am a good person.  err not.

ohyeahhhh, I’m fucking happy that I’m moving.  sorry if you’re not but I fucking am.  not gonna be for a little while though.  I just wanna be closer to my family and get away from this gay shit city.

waoww, this is a longass blog..

yesterday went to ohlone orientation with nigga.  useless ass shit.  maybe a couple things helped I guess?  can’t believe we finally went after flaking.. like, literally five times.  hahaha waoww classes were dumbass full.  anyway I had a hard time paying attention as usual.  like in a minute I’ll be thinking of something stupid and random then I’d catch myself and be like focus bitch.  I kind of wanna go back to school.  but I know once I go I’ll be like UGHHHH haha. 
but wtf I came home and my mom said I’m going to heald -__-  what the hell is that.  I never even heard of a medical billing accounting assistant or whatever the fuck it’s called.  and I’m scared to hella go into and fail, or do it then not even get a job?  kinda wanna do it the way I want and do ohlone with the hard shit taking hella days then transfer.  I know it’ll be hardass work but I’m willing to take the challenge.  of course I’m always hella driven in the beginning but whenever I think of the result, I just stay motivated.  soo iunoo what to do.  think we have an appointment with heald like on monday.  =T  welps surprisingly I’m like whatever about it.

shit iunoo what to do with you.  hella outta the cuts and it was one of those, I never thought this in my life moments.  I’m actually pretty hella shocked.  &flattered(: duh.  thing is, idk if it’ll be worth it.  wayy too soon to tell so we’ll just see.

tonight?  hopefully we come through.  I’m not trippin though like I used to.  ahah if not then I know what to do ;]

I hope shit works out for me and for everyone too.  I reallyyyy do.

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